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среда, 14 декабря 2011 г.

the 1st Hadith


On the authority of Omar bin Al-Khattab, who said : I heared the messenger of Allah salla Allah u alihi wa sallam say :

"Actions are but by intention and every man shall have but that which he intended. Thus he whose migration was for Allah and His messenger, his migration was for Allah and His messenger, and he whose migration was to achieve some worldly benefit or to take some woman in marriage, his migration was for that for which he migrated." related by Bukhari and Muslim




this first hadith is themed intentions
this was because
for every action must started with intentions
and these 40 hadith have been sorted in order
by imam an-nawawi
from the most important
to the important
(never be the least~^^)


as for everything started with intention
good intention usually will lead to peaceful life, insyaAllah
and bad intention will sunken your heart into the dark
and eventually you'll will find your way further from the "sirratolmustakim"
but if you realized, make amends.
and insyaAllah
the most merciful will decide


in my life, my minds always wander
and sometimes i feel like...
"have i purpose to live?"
i've been so cruel to myself
by going to classes without any intention
it feels like empty
and the emptiness have got me too long
that i feel like i rather die than continue living


i should fixed my mind...
about for what purpose should i live...



суббота, 26 марта 2011 г.

Would one of you like to eat the flesh of his brother when dead?

Sahih International

O you who have believed, avoid much [negative] assumption. Indeed, some assumption is sin. And do not spy or backbite each other. Would one of you like to eat the flesh of his brother when dead? You would detest it. And fear Allah ; indeed, Allah is Accepting of repentance and Merciful.(49:12)


erm...
i think we all knew ab0ut it
fr0m l0wer scho0l
but maybe we have f0rg0tten ab0ut it
and truthfully
i, myself, cann0t escape fr0m making negative assumpti0n
especially when i knew the dark part 0f s0me0ne
but i'll try harder n0t t0


spying 0r backbiting 0thers is n0t a great ch0ice
c0z it is n0t me
and i w0nt be happy by lo0king t0 0thers' misf0rtune
and i d0nt like any0ne t0 d0 the same t0 me



четверг, 24 марта 2011 г.

Perhaps they may be better than them



Sahih International
"O you who have believed, let not a people ridicule [another] people; perhaps they may be better than them; nor let women ridicule [other] women; perhaps they may be better than them. And do not insult one another and do not call each other by [offensive] nicknames. Wretched is the name of disobedience after [one's] faith. And whoever does not repent - then it is those who are the wrongdoers." (49:11)














s0metime it is because 0f jeal0usy
s0metime it is because 0f l0neliness
s0metime it is because 0f just t0 kill time
s0metime it is just f0r fun


it just came 0ut fr0m plica v0calis
talking 0r chatting
whispering 0r sh0uting
every w0rds c0unts


t0 c0ntr0l each sentence with a great mind awareness
is like baking a cake with0ut any s0urce 0f heat


i always try t0 be cautious
but s0metimes it ends as failure
but at least... i tried
and i kn0w that
Allah kn0ws everything inside every0ne's chest
:)



вторник, 22 марта 2011 г.

He overwhelmed you with drowsiness

8:11


Sahih International
[Remember] when He overwhelmed you with drowsiness [giving] security from Him and sent down upon you from the sky, rain by which to purify you and remove from you the evil [suggestions] of Satan and to make steadfast your hearts and plant firmly thereby your feet.(8:11)

this was 0ne 0f ayat tadabur with Kak Ira...
yup!
d0nt we realise when everytime we were enc0untered by pr0blem
s0metimes we g0t sleepy 
and when we w0ke up
0ur tense dissappeared
need n0t searching f0r caffein
0r sm0ke
0r viagra
0r what-s0-ever
it came naturally t0 us
h0w merciful Allah is, isn't it?
He's the 0ne wh0 0wns tr0ubles
and He's als0 0wns s0luti0ns

bef0re,
i th0ught i'd br0ken d0wn the PC
c0z just c0des appeared t0 the screen
everytime i restarted the PC
then
i cried
c0z i th0ught my br0ther will c0me and "kill" me
and i cried
and cried
and then i slept 0n the s0fa
when i w0ke up
i felt refreshed
very peaceful
and then
i knew fr0m my br0ther
that actually i just clicked a wr0ng butt0n
and everything g0ne well
thanks t0 my br0ther~^^




0o0ops... i mean..
thanks t0 Allah~^^

воскресенье, 20 марта 2011 г.

And worship your Lord until there comes to you the certainty

Human can plan everything but 0nly Allah can decide everything.
Allah gave man eyes t0 see
ears t0 listen
heart and mind t0 think
but
Allah als0 the 0ne wh0 decide
t0 give 0r n0t t0 give the guidance
t0 any0ne He wants
c0z He's the ruler 0f the mankind
The L0rd
The Mightiest

....................................................................................................................................................................

57:5
Sahih International
His is the dominion of the heavens and earth. And to Allah are returned [all] matters.(57:5)

Allah is the 0ne wh0 0wns the tr0uble
but He is als0 wh0 0wns the s0luti0n

....................................................................................................................................................................


i always w0nder
and w0nder
w0ndering ab0ut why s0metimes i feel s0 cl0se t0 Allah
but s0metimes
my mind cant st0p thinking ab0ut anything else
even in prayers
but 
n0w i realized
that 
He als0 0wns my certainty
and my feelings
s0
whatever i feel 0r d0
have been in His plans
and
He kn0ws what is the best f0r me
everything that happens
have their 0wn influence t0 every0ne
and He kn0ws what we d0nt kn0w
s0
whenever i get c0nfused ab0ut life
i just h0ld 0n t0 this ayat....


15:99
Sahih International
And worship your Lord until there comes to you the certainty (death).(15:5)




понедельник, 14 марта 2011 г.

The Islamic Spectacles

Last Sunday, I've g0t an Usrah t0 attend t0..
but, i didn't g0 c0z I had s0me headache.. (I'm n0t sick!! but i just feel the pain inside my brain every time i m0ve... i d0n't even sleep!!)...T.T
s0, i just rest inside my c0mf0rter and ate Panad0l t0 bear the pain..(t0tal panad0l c0nsumed=4)


in the evening, Kak Ira came t0 visit...
and she handle her Usrah inside the ro0m..
me? still hiding inside the c0mf0rter.. (seri0usly!! i can't get up!! it's very painful~T.T)
s0, i just listen and learn s0me new p0ints~[^.^]






then, i heard they discussing ab0ut the Islamic Spectacles..
ab0ut seeing everything in Islamic p0int 0f view..
fr0m my ISK... it was the Islamic Filter..(i think~^^")
s0, Kak Ira said ab0ut watching m0vies using the Islamic Spectacle..
then, when the time c0mes t0 pray..
we'll pray first bef0re c0ntinuing the m0vie..
0r t0 n0t t0 f0rget t0 pray..


it makes me remembered my 2 dreams...


bef0re, i had dreamt ab0ut playing games...
it was a really hard acti0n game..
i had t0 c0mplete s0me task t0 c0ntinue t0 an0ther level...
until i c0mplete the task, i can't leave the arena..
my first task is t0 catch a wild m0nkey...
it was very wild talkative m0nkey..
very irritating and ann0ying..
but then...
i c0mpleted the task...
s0, i was 0ut 0f the arena...
in fr0nt 0f me, there was a do0r..
and i knew that if i enter, i can't c0me 0ut until the 0ther task is c0mpleted..
and...
i was ab0ut t0 enter...
then, i suddenly realized...
....
....
...
...
i didn't perf0rm Asar prayers yet....
...
s0...
i just w0ke up fr0m my sleep and pray~XD



воскресенье, 13 марта 2011 г.

Warkah Buat Baba

Assalamualaikum... Baba....
Baba...
Ami ingat lagi...


dulu... 
Ami anak kesayangan Baba...
ingat tak?
baba bg ami teddy bear...
dah 14 tahun dah umur die...


dulu...
Ami pernah kena pukul dgn abg sbb kena tuduh buat rosak cd abg..
baba marah abg dan baling cd tu kat tingkap...
cd tu pcah...
lepas tu baba pujuk ami...


dulu...
Ami main chess dgn baba..
Ami menang..
sbb baba tak tumpu kat game
baba tumpu pd kerja baba...


dulu...
Ami selalau tid0 dgn baba...
pukul 3pagi...
baba start kereta pergi tmpat kerja...
baba suka kerja...
baba da tua..
tp..
org kate baba berdarah muda...


dulu...
baba pernah tertinggal Ami kat sek0lah...
Ami meraj0k...
Ami balik rumah jalan kaki...
tp
sbenarnyer
baba tersalah teng0k jam kan?


dulu...
Amilah yg selalu telef0n baba
"bila baba nak balik?"
ayat tu selalu ami sebut bila telefon baba..


dulu...
Amilah yg terus keluar bukakan pagar bila dengar bunyi kereta...
sbb
ami tahu tu tndenye baba da balik dr K.trg...
amilah org yg pertama akan salam dgn baba...


dulu...
Baba akan bawa balik 2biji kelapa setiap minggu
sbb baba tahu
ami suke kelapa..
petang tu jugak..
baba akan ambil golok
dan tolong belahkan utk ami


dulu...
ami selalu kena marah dgn mama..
waktu tu baba kena cuci buah pinggang
jd baba cume balik hujung minggu.
ami selalu tunggu baba balik...
kalau baba balik...
mesti mama tak marah ami...
waktu tu..
baba sakit buah pinggang dan jantung..
sebab tu...
ami nak jadi pakar jantung...
boleh rawat baba..
takde la baba tinggal ami lame2


dulu...
setiap pagi sblum pergi sekolah..
ami mesti salam dgn baba
peluk dan cium kadang-kadang..
ami ingat lagi..
baba tinggi..
mach0...
kulit gelap sikit...
tapi badan baba tegap walaupun dah tua..
org lain semua ingat baba tu datuk ami..
tp
ami dgn bangge cakap
"Baba tu ayah ami la!"


tapi tu semua dulu...


pagi hari sabtu tu...
baba nk pg K.trg..
cuci buah pinggang..
biasenye ami akan salam, peluk dan cium baba...
tapi..
hari tu ami tertid0...
bile ami bangun..
ami trus kluar rumah
tp..
ami tg0p kereta baba kat pintu pagar..
ami trus lari..
tp...
kereta baba dah berlalu pergi..
ami tak sempat lambai pun kat baba...
ami sedih..
tp..
ami ingat takpe
sbb nnti mesti baba balik...
boleh peluk baba...


tapi...
tengah hari tu..
mama dapat panggilan..
mama kate baba sakit tenat...
kte0rg bergegas naik kereta..
nk pergi kat baba..
tp..
dalam perjalann...
mama dapat panggilan lagi...
mama nampak betul2 sedih...
mama kate
"Baba dah takde..."
ami dengar 
dan 
ami faham maksud mama
yg baba dah tinggalkan ami
tapi..
ami tak dapat terima..
ami tak menangis..
sbb ami masih berharap...
yg maksud mama tu
macam baba tiba2 hilang dr ambulans..
maknenye
masih ada waktu untuk jumpe baba..


tapi..
sampai di hospital Dungun..
ami pergi dkat ambulans yg bawa baba
ami tg0p baba dah terbujur kaku..
betullah..
baba dah tinggalkan ami...
dan
cume ami sorang yg tk dapat salam, peluk dan cium baba..
cume ami s0rang...




sekarang...
baba tg0p lah
anak dara baba dah besar...
anak dara baba dah sampai rusia...


sekarang
dah 7tahun baba tinggalkan ami..
tapi...
ami still ingat kat baba...
ami still rindu kat baba...








kalau menangisi si mati... si mati akan terseksa...
tapi... kalau menangis sbb rindu.. salah ke?

понедельник, 28 февраля 2011 г.

Just Th0ught 0f S0mething These Few Days

Last weekend (0f c0z it's Sunday... i d0n't have any week"end" 0n 0ther days including Saturday~[T^T]),
i went t0 s0k0lniki with my friends t0 discuss ab0ut Islam. ( i mean... like reciting s0me phrases in Quran and discussed ab0ut the meaning 0f it and watching s0me vide0s t0 take s0me "useful input")

"erm... kak Nana... wahyu akhir rasullullah ape erk? biasenyer kite tau and belajar yang al-alaq 5 ayat untuk wahyu pertama rasulullah... abes tu, wahyu akhir ape?"

i d0nt kn0w why i suddenly asked ab0ut the last message 0f Allah t0 0ur Last Pr0phet (pbuh). (i am n0t as pi0us as 0thers~[^.^]")
and kak Nana t0ld me that she didnt sure ab0ut it... but she knew 0ne 0f the surah which was dated 0nly few m0nths bef0re the passing away 0f the h0ly pr0phet (pbuh).

....................................................................................................................................................................


Surah An-Nasr

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.
When Allah's succour and the triumph cometh
And thou seest mankind entering the religion of Allah in troops,
Then hymn the praises of thy Lord, and seek forgiveness of Him. Lo! He is ever ready to show mercy.

.............................................................................................................

and kak Nana t0ld me ab0ut it.

it happens on one of the meetings between 'sohabah' discussing the reason 'surah an-Nasr' was received...at the time, Umar ibn Khattab was the chairman of this meeting and he invited Ibn Abbas who at that time was only 15 years old...

talks came about among the sohabah and they argued the presence of Ibn Abbas as he was still young...but Umar ignored them...and he carried on with the meeting...

they were giving their own views on why this surah was sent...naturally many said due to the opening of makkah...when Ibn Abbas turn came, and he was ask for his view, he said...

"this is a sign, Allah was trying to tell us that the time has come for our beloved prophet (s.a.w.) to come back to Him as all his duties were fulfilled"

everyone in the meeting was astonished...how can he decipher such meaning from a simple surah like this...

because...
actually...
during our prophet (s.a.w.) was still alive...

He once prayed for Ibn Abbas the following du'a:

"Ya Allah, understand him (or make him clever in) our religion (islam) and teach him at-ta'wiil (knowledge of interpretation)"

..............................................................................................................................

these phrases really catched my interest... and i d0nt kn0w why...
when i think back, 

yup! everyb0dy have their 0wn duties t0 be fulfilled which had been planned by Allah The Almighty...
and...
we are g0ing back t0 Him after we fulfilled it..

0n the way back t0 Pushkin (my dearest H0stel),
my mind cann0t st0p thinking ab0ut it...

"why am i here?" 
"why d0 i keep living?"
"what have Allah planned me t0 d0?"

c0z....
when the j0b's d0ne, then my time will c0me....


Winter Break!!!

yippie!!!
winter break!!!
(alth0ugh it's already 0ver when writing this~^^")


s0,
let's hear my st0ry~!!!















........


just after the final exam f0r bi0org,
i'd t0 pack all the things in single day~!!!
(n0t even 24 h0urs!)


then,
my friends and me went t0 the airp0rt late that nite...
my "s0me0ne" sent me there to0~:P


the adventure started when passing the "guys" at the airp0rt..
they asked ab0ut we staying at UK..
they even asked ab0ut transit in Hamburg bef0re reaching back here~^^"


then,
at the imigresen check,
we are asked t0 put away 0ur sh0es t0 be scanned to0!!
(w0w!! t0o strict t0 leave russia!!XD)


and 0ff t0 UK!! (L0nd0n)


.......


first impressi0n~
w0w!!!
i can understand their w0rds!!! and what they are speaking!!




"s0rry, l0ve!"


who0ps!!!
err.... 0kay.... that's n0thing...
juz their lifestyle~


they are s0 p0lite!!


......




to be c0ntinued...
(s0rry, d0n't have the m0od t0 bl0gging due t0 tiredness)