Just Th0ught 0f S0mething These Few Days

Last weekend (0f c0z it's Sunday... i d0n't have any week"end" 0n 0ther days including Saturday~[T^T]),

i went t0 s0k0lniki with my friends t0 discuss ab0ut Islam. ( i mean... like reciting s0me phrases in Quran and discussed ab0ut the meaning 0f it and watching s0me vide0s t0 take s0me "useful input")

"erm... kak Nana... wahyu akhir rasullullah ape erk? biasenyer kite tau and belajar yang al-alaq 5 ayat untuk wahyu pertama rasulullah... abes tu, wahyu akhir ape?"

i d0nt kn0w why i suddenly asked ab0ut the last message 0f Allah t0 0ur Last Pr0phet (pbuh). (i am n0t as pi0us as 0thers~[^.^]")

and kak Nana t0ld me that she didnt sure ab0ut it... but she knew 0ne 0f the surah which was dated 0nly few m0nths bef0re the passing away 0f the h0ly pr0phet (pbuh).

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http://www.mounthira.com/learning/surah/110-an-nasr/

Surah An-Nasr

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.
When Allah's succour and the triumph cometh
And thou seest mankind entering the religion of Allah in troops,
Then hymn the praises of thy Lord, and seek forgiveness of Him. Lo! He is ever ready to show mercy.

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and kak Nana t0ld me ab0ut it.

it happens on one of the meetings between 'sohabah' discussing the reason 'surah an-Nasr' was received...at the time, Umar ibn Khattab was the chairman of this meeting and he invited Ibn Abbas who at that time was only 15 years old...

talks came about among the sohabah and they argued the presence of Ibn Abbas as he was still young...but Umar ignored them...and he carried on with the meeting...

they were giving their own views on why this surah was sent...naturally many said due to the opening of makkah...when Ibn Abbas turn came, and he was ask for his view, he said...

"this is a sign, Allah was trying to tell us that the time has come for our beloved prophet (s.a.w.) to come back to Him as all his duties were fulfilled"

everyone in the meeting was astonished...how can he decipher such meaning from a simple surah like this...

because...
actually...
during our prophet (s.a.w.) was still alive...

He once prayed for Ibn Abbas the following du'a:

"Ya Allah, understand him (or make him clever in) our religion (islam) and teach him at-ta'wiil (knowledge of interpretation)"

fr0m: http://xpheline.blogspot.com/2009/09/only-fifteen-years-old.html

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these phrases really catched my interest... and i d0nt kn0w why...

when i think back, 

yup! everyb0dy have their 0wn duties t0 be fulfilled which had been planned by Allah The Almighty...

and...

we are g0ing back t0 Him after we fulfilled it..

0n the way back t0 Pushkin (my dearest H0stel),

my mind cann0t st0p thinking ab0ut it...

"why am i here?" 

"why d0 i keep living?"

"what have Allah planned me t0 d0?"

c0z....

when the j0b's d0ne, then my time will c0me....

Winter Break!!!

yippie!!!
winter break!!!
(alth0ugh it's already 0ver when writing this~^^")


s0,
let's hear my st0ry~!!!

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just after the final exam f0r bi0org,
i'd t0 pack all the things in single day~!!!
(n0t even 24 h0urs!)


then,
my friends and me went t0 the airp0rt late that nite...
my "s0me0ne" sent me there to0~:P


the adventure started when passing the "guys" at the airp0rt..
they asked ab0ut we staying at UK..
they even asked ab0ut transit in Hamburg bef0re reaching back here~^^"


then,
at the imigresen check,
we are asked t0 put away 0ur sh0es t0 be scanned to0!!
(w0w!! t0o strict t0 leave russia!!XD)


and 0ff t0 UK!! (L0nd0n)


.......


first impressi0n~
w0w!!!
i can understand their w0rds!!! and what they are speaking!!

"s0rry, l0ve!"

who0ps!!!
err.... 0kay.... that's n0thing...
juz their lifestyle~


they are s0 p0lite!!


......




to be c0ntinued...
(s0rry, d0n't have the m0od t0 bl0gging due t0 tiredness)

The Final Exam

alhamdulillah...
i've passed the exam...
alth0ugh with0ut flying c0l0urs,
i'm very satisfied with it...
c0z i d0 it with my really 0wn ability....
i study the text b0ok alm0st every single detail 0f it...
and even f0und it's funny

"esters and amide occur widely in nature; anhydrides and, especially, acyl halide are CREATURES of the LABORATORY CHEMISTS because of their reactivity"

hahaha!!!
[^w^]

back t0 da sh0w!!

at last!!
the exam finished!
n0w's h0liday!
eventh0ugh just few days bef0re the 2nd semester start,
it's time f0r enj0yable m0ment!!

s0rry c0z i didn't write as s0on as i'm h0me...

t0o tired~:P

there were l0ts 0f exciting things passed during this h0liday...
and i am really excited t0 share...

Happy Birthday Kak PKah!!!~XD

firstly,
0n this 3/1/2011
i w0uld like t0 wish happy birthday t0 kak pkah
i h0pe she will suceed in herlife
and be happily ever after...


t0 me,
Kak Pkah has treat me well
she always message me in FB
and never f0rget t0 ask me whether i am in go0d health 0r n0t
eventh0ugh s0metimes she herself is busy..
i really l0ve Kak Pkah~!!!^^


Kak Pkah,
a very thin lady,
cute and ad0rable,
making me jel0use by her appearance~:P
just want t0 say...

"please always be my Kak Pkah~XD"

p/s: Kak Pkah jgn marah yer~:P 

good bye bitter ch0c0late and sweet s0ur strawberry 2010~!!!

Happy New Year, minna-san!!


say0nara 2010!!!!


let's begin the year by reviewing the year of 2010...

January;
i g0t PLKN t0 attend
g0t really excited c0z i really wanna play the M-16
g0t new friends, especially chinese;
the best: chien
and 
indian;
the best: asharani
and g0t a p0siti0n 0f "ketua bilik"
eventh0ugh i never had been 0ne b4
eats l0ts 0f burger
get fam0us easily as "budak msuk air"
c0z very excited in d0ing every activities
als0
there s0me0ne wh0 even dare t0 tell me
"muka d0p malu"
right 0n my face!
i really hate that guy!!!


February;
then, pr0blems start t0 c0me 0ut
i was hated by my 0wn malay r0omates
except 2 0f them
but i cant really get mad at them
c0z they have their 0wn reas0ns
but i can never say i'm happy with it
but
there's still s0me wh0 back me up
and i really2 appreatiate it
entered k0ir
(i w0nder if i really sh0uld enter it... what i kn0w is i want t0 take revenge 0n my failure in the past k0ir interview when i was in l0w sch0ol)
g0t p0siti0n in supran0 gr0up~^^"

March;
g0t alm0st bitten by H1N1 (I.L.I)
have t0 wear mask n get quarantine
but secretly wandering by the last nite 0f PLKN
n even play musical chair
supp0sely i g0t a p0siti0n t0 win prize
but a friend 0f mine "main kotor"
unfair!!
PLKN ended
SPM result ann0unced
g0t A+ f0r BM n Hist0ry
get really sh0cked! :)
g0t B+ f0r EST
feeling d0wn... :(


April;
applying t0 every single place that i can apply
n waiting
while d0ing the everydays ch0res
s0 b0ring
g0ing f0r interviews
JPA n YT
using FB
trying t0 get driving licence


May;
waiting f0r result
waiting
waiting

June;
g0t place in YT's sch0larship
t0 russia^^
enter TATI f0r predepature
3 m0nths
stay at Awana Kijal
experiencing a new lifestyle
waiting f0r depature
"khenat" 0perati0n~XD

July;
a really heart sunk m0nth
my file's g0ne (full with my certificates)
get sc0ld by my m0m
my heart is really sensitive th0se days
my SPM slip als0 g0ne
and i heard fr0m my m0m that the pers0n in YT insult her
i cried badly th0se days.. :(

August;
the path t0 russia seems clearer
get beaten by my 0wn br0ther (still bc0z 0f the preci0us file)
realizing s0me weird feelings t0ward s0me0ne~:P
fasting
sh0pping

September;
BerHari Raya
g0t int0 a relati0nship with s0me0ne
nerv0us but happy
fly t0 russia!!!


0ct0ber;
class started
trying t0 get used t0 new surr0unding
buy a new winter c0at
taking pictures


N0vember;
less0n getting t0ugher
just g0 t0 class as usual
first time n0sebleed (2 times)
s0mething unpleasant happenned


December;
g0t t0 much c0ll0qium
really tensi0n!
really tensi0n!
the semester ends!!!!
yippee!!!!XD


that's all my bitter ch0c0late and sweet s0ur strawberry that i can share
the 0ther details w0uld be still remained as my himitsu~^^

Brave Song - every0ne's will be l0nely s0medays

this is the lyrics translation f0r brave s0ng fr0m angel beats

this s0ng is definitely like me a while bef0re~

l0ve this s0ng...

easily make me g0 t0 the dream palace

I was always walking alone, When I turned around everyone was far behind

Even so I kept walking, That was what strength was

“I’m not afraid of anything anymore,” I try to whisper to myself

Everyone becomes alone someday living on only in memories

So that I can love and laugh even in loneliness I will fight

I will show no tears

I was always walking alone, A cliff waited for me at my destination

Even so I kept walking as proof of my strength

The strong wind blew against me, My shirt stuck to me with sweat

If I can forget everything someday living will become so much simpler

If I fall past oblivion that’s just running away

If only the meaning of having lived would disappear

Before long the wind died down and the sweat evaporated

I’ve become hungry, Did something happen?

Together with vibrant voices a pleasant scent came along

I was always walking alone, Everyone was waiting

Everyone becomes alone someday living on only in memories

Even so it’s fine, I will call these peaceful feelings my companions

Living somewhere I will someday forget the days that I spent with everyone as well

At that time I won’t be strong anymore

With the weakness of a normal girl tears will overflow

just 2 pict

just f0r n0thing...
these 2 pictures 0f m0sc0w
0ne during day
and 0ne during nite...


it's freezing c0ld that i d0nt ever dare t0 h0ld the camera f0r l0ng


but still the actual view is l0ts and l0ts m0re beautiful than in these ph0t0s
(s0rry f0r being such a bad ph0t0grapher)


d0nt kn0w what m0re t0 c0mment~^^

is seeking a thousand of fakes worth a tiny sincerity?

s0me0ne asked me t0 search f0r l0ts 0f friends
but i still can't pr0mise him


can u think why?


yup!
i c0uld always be friends with everyb0dy
(if they want t0 be friend with me)
they're always kind
and even i s0metimes feel that i d0nt w0rth it
but t0 be cl0se friend..
it's still really t0o hard...

i just want t0 search f0r a tiny diam0nd
am0ng the cracked glass
alth0ugh it makes me bleed
i still h0ping f0r it

the value 0f kn0wledge and passing examinati0n

cant hide any l0nger..
i am n0w realise that everything isnt like bef0re
everything gets t0ugher and t0ugher as i walked up the winding r0ad

t0 tell the truth,
i never feel h0w failing exam was until i g0t here
the first time i was t0ld t0 repeat the exam,
my heart sank int0 the deepest sea
but i dare n0t t0 cry
and
i t0ok the repeat test


but i was tested 0nce again,
i had t0 take an0ther repeat
just f0r the same 1st c0ll0q
but still i dare n0t t0 cry


the 2nd c0ll0q,
i t0ok 0n the 0ther day
n0t the same day as 0thers
and
i have t0 take 0nce m0re repeat
but still
i dare n0t t0 cry


but this w0rds always c0ating my tiny brain
"am i n0t go0d en0ugh?"


but i think
the hardest-t0-accept truth 0f an answer
"i am to0 lazy!"


i sh0uld d0 m0re revisi0n


but is it true en0ugh?


in seeking f0r the best s0luti0n
i reviewed my 0ld sch0ol life


yup!


study was an interesting thing
but revisi0n isn't
and why i still g0t go0d marks bef0re?
c0z i really L0ve T0 KN0W
t0 kn0w m0re ab0ut everything
everything 0n this w0rld 0f his


but n0w?
i was m0re t0 ign0re th0se feelings


and i did cried


it was t0o late f0r a c0meback in exam
but still n0t t0 learn and study


eh??
what am i d0ing?
i keep advising myself~^^"


yup!
just keep smiling
and u kn0w u can d0 it!

there's still space f0r me!


p/s: whateva it is.. n0w is t0 enj0y life and study~^^
       neva get pressed by the situati0n!

first sem's 0ver~!!!

n0w the first sem is 0ver!!!
n0w, i've g0t m0re time t0 play, "fb"ing and bl0gging...
....
eh?
wasureteta!!!!
still g0t bi00rganic test 0n 0ral~^^"
...
wateva!!
...
t0 the 0ne wh0 reads this...
please d0 c0mment!!
if u g0t interesting thing t0 talk ab0ut~
d0 tell!!
0r...
anything playing 0n ur mind ab0ut me...
feel free t0 ask~!!!^^
....
i think that's a l0ng essay f0r a c0me back!
g0men~^^"
...
0k that's all...
jaa ne~^^

g0men!

i'm to0 busy lately...
can't p0st any news~!!!^^
but i'll be back sh0rtly...
maybe after the exam~!!!^^

Wind (Don't try to be so wise)

this is the lyrics 0f 0ne 0f narut0's ending s0ng...
very go0d t0 listen and think 0f....
learn t0 n0t t0 be s0 wise but be 0ur 0wn selves~:)

Cultivate your hunger, before you idealize

Motivate your Anger, to make them all realize

Climbing the mountain, never coming down

Break into the contents, never falling down

My knee is still shaking like I was twelve

Sneakin' out the classroom, by the back door

A man railed at me twice, though

But I didn't care

Waiting is wasting, for people like me

Don't try to look so wise,

Don't cry 'cos your so right

Don't dry with fakes or fears

'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

Don't try to look so wise,

Don't cry 'cos your so right

Don't dry with fakes or fears,

'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

You say dreams are dreams

I ain't gonna play the fool anymore

You say, 'cos I still got my soul

Take your time baby

Your blood needs slowin' down

Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom

Reflection of fear make shadows of nothing

Shadows of nothing

You still are blind if you see a winding road

'Cos there's always a straight way to the point you see

Don't try to look so wise

Don't cry, 'cos your so right

Don't dry with fakes or fears

'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

Don't try to look so wise

Don't cry 'cos your so right

Don't dry with fakes or fears

'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

Don't try to look so wise

Don't cry 'cos your so right

Don't dry with fakes or fears

'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

'Cos you will hate yourself in the end

Wind - Akeb0shi

fr0m y t0 y

a go0d s0ng...
but
i only play it when i am em0... 


just the translati0n...

 

You turned your back at me and walked away

without saying a single word…

In my wavering heart, I screamed like a child

“Don’t go…don’t leave…hey…”

I turned my back at you and walked away,

I have to leave this place before I start to cry.

It was a lie when I said I hated happiness.

I acted tough and let go of my ideal future…

I can’t take my wish back…

I feel this small room as gotten wider

expanding the scar in my heart.

And even a minute or a second seem longer…

If only I could spend it with you…

Does this world not even allow me to have a wish?

Even a single lie

will give birth to your tears…

I have sinned so much that I can’t keep track,

like holding your hand

and like gently being by your side…

When I pick up a bit of the present, I feel like I throw a bit of the past.

But I’m sure the me who laid in

the infinite memories and time

will surely disappear from your memories…

Can’t we go back to how it used to be?

Is this the beginning…or the end?

The nights where I sleep in this wide bed won’t end,

I simply dream…alone

I dream of a dream following your memories.

But I have sinned so much that I can’t keep track,

like holding your hand

and like gently being by your side…

If I can compensate by experiencing this pain from loneliness,

then please keep me in your memories.

It’ll be great if we can meet again with these immutable feelings.

We’ll hold hands,

but until that time comes,

“See you later”

fr0m y t0 y - Hatsune Miku 

a j0urney t0 the light

al0ne in the dark
when it is m0rning
i search f0r the light
but i cant find it
i wander ar0und
but i see n0thing

"0uch!"

my f0ot bleeds


i want t0 cry
but if i d0 s0
wh0'll listen?


i c0ntinue my j0urney
in searching the light


i walk n c0ntinue walking
but still seeing n0thing
my fo0t hurts al0t
but if i st0p
when will i 0btain the light?

"0uch!"

0nce again
i rise and c0ntinue walking
it hurts m0re n m0re as i walk
but
i learn t0 be m0re persistance
as i fell n hurts


"where's the light?
d0es light exist?"


i'm fed up with this j0urney
n st0p

"i d0nt want t0 d0 this anym0re!"

suddenly
i hear s0me0ne calling my names
the s0me0ne grabs my hand
n n0w i can see it
THE LIGHT

zer0 n0 ch0uritsu

this is 0ne 0f lyrics translati0n that sh0uld be shared t0gether
fr0m a game entitled "Fatal Frame 4"
which is an exciting deathly h0rr0r game
that i like the m0st. (even th0ugh i d0nt really play the game... s0 scary~)


s0,
enj0y~!!!^^

I saw a broken instrument in a dream

It played after an eternity of dormancy

(litterally, for an eternity of time that was unable to wake)

After how many nights of spinning (on the spinning wheel)

Will it become a light that shines upon you?

Your hands are tangled

Because you were chasing and then escaping

At least embrace this gentle warmth and bloom

Just call my name

So call my name

Please wrap me among the scattering petals

With your arms

I am not yet myself until I’m needed

Could you get me out of this cipher?

By resounding among the infinite tones of colors

Can my voice be heard perfectly?

Don’t turn your eyes away

Although I am not the one you think of

I’ll compose and search from this blank space toward the future

I will grasp them

Just call my name

So call my name

Please wrap me among the scattering petals

With your arms

I am not yet myself until I’m needed

Could you get me out of this cipher?

zer0 n0 ch0uritsu (just call my name) - by Aman0 Tsukik0

.:p/s: c0uld u get me 0ut 0f this cipher?:.